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Today was a very bad day, after 5 years my hubby finally got out of the navy 5 months ago just to be called back in he finally got a job which he was supposed to start next month and register for his school for the licence he needs for the new job next week and now he might not even be able to make the registration and end up losing the new job all together we have a beautiful 4 year old son together and we are going broke no money for anything living with my in laws all 3 cramed into 1 bedroom stressing everyday crying looking into my son's eyes as he crys and asks for his daddy my family are stressed out cause they are worried about me and i'm stressed cause i'm making them go thru that my father has health problems and it's getting worst cause he's stressed about me I keep telling him i'm ok so he doesn't have to stress or his health to get worst but I can't lie to my father cause when i say i'm ok daddy he knows i'm lying so that doesn't help he offers me money but even tho I really need it I'm ashamed to take it and feel guilty when I tell my dad I don't need it he starts crying telling he knows I need it and I can always count on him if I need it and he has it he will give it to me I cry right along with while still trying to convince him i'm fine i don't need the money he needs it more then I do but still no matter what he knows i'm lying and tried to put the money in my hand when i grab it I cry even more feeling so guilty taking my father's money and trying to give it back but he gets mad at me looking for work is no fun and especially when noone wants to help me cause I have no expierience doing anything but warehouse work and I don't ever want to do that again and because I have no high school education I'm looking into work from home jobs but they are either scams or you have to pay just for the info that's money i don't have my hubby has to pay$300 for the school for the job and we don't even have half of that so i'm running out of options, money, and patience I don't know what to do any advise or help from anyone reading this (Hopefully) will greatly be apprietiated!